Today end of examination. Yes, everything is over. But, no, not yet.
Pretty simple and easy task, done within minutes, and move my ass away from the college compound. Practical examination always make me feel proud, in the bad way. That make me feel like I’m the best among all, while I’m not.
After the long long waiting, waiting, and waiting, it’s finally time to go out. Dinner time. Tony, Yung Wei, Yuen San, and me. Oh who’s that. A new friend. Julie? Yupe I assume, since I heard them call her that way.
It’s funny that she’s happy over something I made out of flyers and papers. I never expect such excited response. I feel glad that she loves it. =D
All the effort of thinking, measuring, sketching, cutting and joining, worth it! =)
I’m so happy that she love it. =D (Dancing with joy) HAHAHA
Now it’s 11:51pm MST while I’m writing this sentence. Everybody is celebrating their end of examination. While I dig myself a hole and jump into it. It’s not over, yet. Before I get the answer I want.
Tomorrow, I’m going to do nothing for 300 minutes in my life. Sitting in that Boeing 737, cruising with the speed of 800km/h+, leaving here. A place where my love is. Going home is a coincidence, a planned coincidence, with motive. Yet, with unknown consequences.
Might not know what’s is waiting me at the end of the road. But I will fight for what I want, for who I am. It’s 11:55pm now, start to rain already… Just like my feeling… Dark, cold, unclear vision, wet and hopeless…
But, there’s always rainbow after the rain, right? NO! If only there’s a SUN. Ok, surrender. No sun at the night time. No rainbow. Lighting and storm is joining the party now. They are flashing and roaring up the sky, far away from the reach of human being. They are phenomenal, while ignorant human being take them as God creation.
I do believe in God’s existence, but not such a God that who creates everything of the world. NO. Don’t convince me. Curse me to burn in hell wouldn’t change me. I’ve been cursed for years. I only believe in my own karma, and my own action. I can change, everything, if I want to. “Impossible, is just because you don’t know how, yet.”
Being emotional so easily this recent. I hope flying over the South China Sea bring me nearer to the answer I’m searching for. I fought and I’m praying for what I want. Be mercy and answer my prayer. HAHAHA
-Leonard-
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